I have resisted making a bucket list, ya know the list one might make in order to satisfy things not yet accomplished. I certainly have a few whimsical items like Parachuting, Bungee jumping, such really unimportant things in the grand scheme. The fact that will conveniently hide away and if I do not remind my self regularly I can forget during my daily activities. My condition is terminal, I know this, everyone knows. I mention all this in order to get to a point, I had quit smoking nearly 2 years ago, having smoked for 30 years, I always loved to smoke, anyone with common sense knows it wasnt good for you, I knew it wasnt good for me and I did it anyhow. I dont believe many nonsmokers understand how it becomes a part of your life to the point you do not even think about it. When I was diagnosed with Lung Cancer it was like Geeze I quit for what, in fact the general consensus normally is whats gonna happen? You gonna get Cancer? Because it was a warm friend whispering to me, because normal was what I wanted, what I needed, what didnt exist in my life, I started smoking again. Few people blinked or said a word except one. Erika, I have written about her, anyone that knows me knows how I feel about that young woman. I wont go into to all that, I didnt anticipate her response. I didnt think she would like it much , I didnt expect what I got. Suffice to say I am quitting smoking, there are good reasons for it medicine wise, there is research to suggest continuing to smoke undermines treatment. It took one person to slap me upside the head and remind me where no one else did. Just one more reason why this young woman is important to me.
Always with love,
Tony.