Reflections

I had a blood transfusion yesterday, if any one had told me a year ago I was gonna do this stuff I would have called them nuts. Sometimes I do still float the river of denial, I cannot do that really very very much of that because I am reminded each and and every day of the enemy that lurks within me. Were I a wealthy man I would stay in town only long enough to obtain treatment, leaving thereafter for some exotic place where women wear little and it's always warm. The flip side of this is what if I were alone and had no insurance? I am sure that happens all over the country at some point or another. I am always thankful for Pam in my life I couldnt image what it would be life with out her. This is very tough on her and in some ways I thougher on her than me. I am very focused on my goals and I have come enjoy being alone she has work as well as all the financial worries and then me. She says she wouldnt have it anyother way but I wonder sometimes and I wouldnt blame her one bit if she did. I am still getting rants and raves about the party, of course it went of spectacularly, it always does but this one I think was extra special and will be remembered for some time.

Always with love,

Tony.