Beauty pageant

I cannot really get as lathered up about politics as a lot of people. This game they play is all performance art, one large beauty contest. should we then be surprised when we get what we have so far? The issues that are important to me usually put people to sleep and thats the problem with politics these days. We no longer as a peple care about the constitution and recent events further prove that. I never thought I would our government nationalize large finanancial institutions and basicly people are cheering it on. it's already a done deal but we should have run away form this one as fast as we could. we didnt, lord knows how many future generations will pay for this. Has anybody forgott hat we have a Medicare and social security crisis looming?

Always with Love ,
Tony.

Stuff

This week seems to have gotten busy, i have taken Pam to work including to day. twice and yesterday I had a client meeting while I was out. Today I will visit a number of my properties and gear up for fall. I guess this is wahat management means, I sure like it a lot better than sitting around wating for something to happen. On Moday tests were taken, A CT and an MRI to gauge the progress that being made by the Chemo. I have not heard the results yet, I suspect I will get them next tues when I go in for my next round of Chemo. I really dont have any thing else for today , lets see if I can do better next time.
Always with love,
Tony.

Fall party

Awonderful cold front has come throught this morning and the Temps are in the 60's, combine some rain with that and it would be fabulous. No such luck on the rain but dang doesnt the cool feel good? Pam and I were married on Oct 14 2000, she jokes now and says we are the only couple she knows of that has hellicopter photos at the beginning of our album. Her father had to be flown out by hellicopter minutes before the wedding began. I mention this because her father was put in ICU and our reception was kinda abreviated, we spent our wedding night at the hospital. We came up with the idea of having an anniversary party the following year and have had one on or around the 14th of Oct since. We do not call it an anniversary party anymore we now call it our fall party. This year it will be on Oct 11th and we are looking forward to it as always. Obviously this year will be different, oh we will still have all the wonderful friends and food and live music. So I suppose all in all things will be the same as ever, I do look forward to the parties, we have always liked to entertain people and I do not want that to change. Fall is coming soon, the change is welcome Fall is a great time in Texas I think I am gonna go camping and fishing as much as I can.

Always with love,
Tony.

Cooler weather

The hurricane was a total bust as far as rain for us at home, althought the north breeze that is filtering in behind it sure feels good and should keep temps and humidity down for a few days. This is the time of year I like most, this time of the year keeps people living in Central Texas, because who the heck would want to live here if it were 100 degrees year around? The damage created by Ike on the coast was certainly impressive and it seems Texas has has been eager to respond. I go back and forth on what the correct response should be to people that live in an area that will have a hurricane at some point. Houston is one thing, there are what 5 million people there? Disaster that occurs there will need to be dealt with on a large scale, I wonder though about the people that have homes right on the coast and what their responsibility for damage should be. This thought may not be politically correct but if you live on the coast should not your homeowners insurance be higher than mine? and mine shouldnt go up because there was a hurricane that destroyed homes and people want to replace them. Texas has some of the highest rates in the country and the insurance companies constantly use costly hurricane seasons as an excuse to hike the rates on everyone. I reject this theory and think that if you really want to live somewhere your house may get trashed by a natural disaster, then you pay more for the priveledge. Afterall who wouldnt want to live on the coast, it's gorgous, some can afford it and some cant. I am gonna enjoy the cooler weather and complain about the fact an over hyped hurricane gave us no rain at all.

Always with love,
Tony.

I had to laugh yesterday, a friend called from Michigan to ask how we were doing. I told her we could use some rain and Ike probably wasnt gonna deliver. She was kinda stunned, she was certain we were preparing to climb in a rowboat any time. The reason for the chuckle is I had just finished an entry here earlier and she hadnt yet read it but had just gotten home from work and of course had heard all the media coverage on the devastation Ike was creating. Pam and I went to a friends house for dinner and they had the weatherchannel on, I cannot imagine why anyone would want to watch a 24/7 weather channel. Thats really the world we are in now isnt it? News is 24/7 and there is a lot of it available You could sit there and literally watch Hurricane all the the time. Before my Mother in law passed on she would do little more than spend hours watching Sattelite TV and she would get caught up in the drama that was some skirmish at the far ends of the earth or the inevitable catostrophic flood in Bagladesh. I wonder when news actually crosses the line and becomes enternaiment what that says about us as people and a society. We as a people do love to watch a train wreck and have a fascination with other peoples distress, I guess it has really always been that way, only now if some poor woman in Bangladesh has to climb a tree during a flood and then has a baby while in the tree, millions hear about it before the baby is born. I ask again what that says about us, I guess I really shouldnt, one need only look homeward and the purely performance art that is our presidential election to get a great example of who we are and want we want for entertainment.

Always with love,
Tony.

Of Hurricanes and drama

Here I am in Central Texas and yet one more Hurricane is about to hit the coast. Oh but this one had so much promise. I have lost count how many have preceeded it, each one with the promise of soaking rain, no such rain delivered. Ike is is likely to repeat this sorry little drama as it's predecessors have. I have long since derived any pleasure from the herds of meterologists standing on the seawalls of Texas getting drenched when a surge heads skyward and I have wondered, is it considered a rite of passge for some weather person to be blown sideways in a 60 mile an hour wind? Inevitably I am required to calm my mother down when she calls thinking the entire state of Texas is under water. Drama and media are enextricably entertwined, how can that be argued, with a presidential election on the horizon. For that reason I watch little or no Television, I listen to news on radio, I think it is important to know what is going on. I do get tired of the drama and the hyperbole and take it with a grain of salt. Yesterday I spoke beiefly of clarity of mind, having had experienced a day of such clarity and knowing today will be the same or better, I feel I have gone over a hump. I do not know what my physical state is going to be, I regularly get tired and need to nap but I am thrilled with the fact that mind is clearing and will consider this a victory.

Always with love,
Tony.

I am not Lazy

I talked to my friend Steven the other day to touch bases and he called me lazy because I havnt written here for some days. I am not a writer, I dont have either the discipline nor the creativity to come up with engaging reparte each and every day, Sometimes things strike me as intersting or some part of may past jumps in and I share it. The more humorous part of this is I spoke with Steven's wife a day or two later and she told about a book she found and was gonna send my way. She said the book was written by a woman who had experienced similar issues as I have, the name of the book is " I have had brain surgery what is your excuse? " In jest I have used that line. The thing is when you combine the hole that was drilled in the left side of my skull and all the other issues like massive amounts of radiation and now Chemo, not to mention the meds a simple question asked of me such as " How are you? " is not as simple as one might think. It's even funnier when a Doctor asks the question, I have started answering them I have no idea, you tell me. I will say honestly I am experiencing a clearer mind if not a stronger body of late, along with the clearer mind comes an ability to make decisions I couldnt make previously. I think this will improve and I have noticed that as it has my little world I was cocooned within has expanded. This journey has at the very least been interesting, that seems strange to say, but after all it is my life and from where I stand I just calls em as I sees em.

Always with love,
Tony.