I am constantly rearranging this current life I have been given, the one thats entangled with the disease called cancer. I was given advice by scores of people, I listened politely some of it was highly inspirational and valuable, some of it was plain unusable. what has become logical to me is to write a list and pick the items off one at a time untill the list is complete. Pammy was asking if I get lonely being alone all day and the truth is I really dont and find peace and solitude. the hardest part is watching the scene fill in and realizing what I can do and cannot, therefore my disabilities lie before me. Over the weekend a weird hand spasm on my right side came to light, it began in earnest on sunday and continues thru today, the Neurologist calls it Focal seizure activity. His answer is to pile Meds on top of current meds, one more thing that keeps me from going out there and doing something instead of doing things inside the house. I really want to get out side and do some work, obviously I have some other issues to resolve first, I am gonna end this here and now today.
Alaways with love,
Tony.